What is with all these angry jejemons commenting on an entry I made YEARS ago? Man, these people should (1) learn how to read and (2) learn to move on and let go.

In other news, there is a lot of it, and I suddenly have loads of time to start writing again. Which I will do when I am using a laptop and not a cellphone to access the internet.

Suffice it to say that if you've been following me on facebook, you have most of the story, and OMG I AM A CASE CON. Ortho surgeon? Not quite yet, but a really unique ortho case? Yes, indeed, that's me.

NaNoWriMo update: 12,859 words. NOT GOOD!

Also, have officially scared my sister because I told her the bits from Light Yagami's point of view practically write themselves. Seriously, I have never written a character with such ease. However, I struggle with the bits from L's and Misa's points of view, and Matsuda's chapters? Utterly hopeless, I am lost at sea.

My only reassurance is that in my fic ( spoiler )

And now sticky plotting details are rearing their ugly heads, and I might have to rewrite one of my favourite scenes which I penned days ago, and there's less than a week left, and ARGH.

I wish I could just quote Lady GaGa lyrics and Tears for Fears songs in their entirety, for I firmly believe their music captures the essence of Death Note's characters (especially Light, L, and Misa, it's like "The Fame" album, "Everybody Wants to Rule the World," "Mad World," and "Head Over Heels" are the soundtrack to their lives, really).

Why did I sign up for NaNoWriMo again? Using a Death Note fanfic? And I contacted someone for beta-reading and all too. In too deep, can't back out now.

Matsuda, write yourself!

finishing NaNoWriMo + cramming for USMLE Step 1 (guess now it's official, I'm taking it on Dec 23, have the confirmation from Prometric and everything) = BAD IDEA.

Talked to my sister about career goals and how my life is nothing nothing nothing standstill, and she told me to just take it one day at a time.

I REALLY don't want to let go of my ortho dreams. I REALLY wish MMC would take me in.

I REALLY want to finish something on the proper deadline for once in my life. But right now I have a woefully raw novel with 4040 words so far, and that includes the chapter titles and the notes I've written in place of actual chapters.

I REALLY want to be involved with someone, not even true love just liking each other a lot and sex and cuddles will do for now.

I REALLY want a regular source of income.

I REALLY want a lot of stuff that most people my age have already attained. Nrgh. What is wrong with me? Sometimes I wish I could go a decade back in time and caution myself: everything you aspire for now, you're not going to get it. Sorry. Best prepare yourself now.

I don't know why, but whenever I get into something I NEED to cross it over with a previous fandom.

You know what makes me wish I had it in me once more to write fanfiction? (Because I used to but I don't know where that went.) This mad, mad crossover idea that I would LOVE to see written out but doubt I will ever see in reality unless I do it myself.

DEATH NOTE + ANNE OF GREEN GABLES

Yes, I know I'm nuts.

I've even planned it out! It's going to be called "L of Wammy's House" but it'll go all the way up to "Anne's House of Dreams" and the characters are:

L = Anne Shirley
Light Yagami = Gilbert Blythe (of course! of course!)

And there'll even be a part where Light will be so pissed off because L doesn't swoon over him like the rest of the Kanto adolescent population, and he will think "I will make that crazy L kid, with his big grey eyes, look at me dammit!" and he will whisper to L "Panda boy! Panda boy!" and L will kick him with his mad capoiera skills and "L Lawlit" will get written up for fighting and he will complain "SPELL MY NAME WITH AN E, DAMMIT" (or maybe he will be going around as "Ryuuga Hideki" and be vastly pleased that his name is misspelled as it keeps his secret identity safe, dunno what angle to take on that one)

And the reason why Light was out of school then came back, L is told, is because he had to take care of his dad who suffered a heart attack. Come on people who've read Anne of Green Gables, doesn't this fit in absolutely perfectly?

Oh! Oh! And the part where L and Light get into To-Oh with top marks, tied for first place! And they are always in competition for first place in EVERYTHING! IT'S PERFECT! DOES THIS SOUND AT ALL FAMILIAR, BOTH ANNE OF GREEN GABLES AND DEATH NOTE FANS?

And! And! You know how Gilbert Blythe is all, "I want to help humanity by fighting the good fight against death and disease as a humble but genius country doctor!" That's Light without the craziness and the Death Note, IT'S PERFECT WHY IS THIS STORY NOT WRITTEN ALREADY?!?

Oh and other characters too:

Watari = an amalgam of Matthew and Marilla Cuthbert. Or maybe Watari can be Matthew and Roger could be Marilla, I dunno. FUCK MATTHEW DIES OF A HEART ATTACK. JUST LIKE WATARI. COINCIDENCE?!?

(wait a minute, then this means Watari &/or Roger had something going on with Soichiro Yagami AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Near and Mello = Dora and Davy Keith or I could make it less nice and neat and Near could be some other friend of Anne's and Mello could be Leslie Moore (WITH MATT AS OWEN FORD FOR MAXIMUM YAOI MILEAGE)

Misa Amane = an amalgam of Ruby Gillis and Christine Stuart. Or maybe, Misa = Ruby and Takada = Christine?

Matsuda = Charlie Sloane
Aizawa = I'm not sure if I should make him kind of okay like Jane Andrews or a bitch like Josie Pye
Wedy = Philippa Gordon
Aiber = Priscilla Grant

I don't know how Beyond Birthday and Mikami Teru would fit into this craziness, though. Beyond Birthday = Charlotta the Fourth? One of those crazy Summerside girls in "Anne of Windy Poplars"? Mikami Teru = Miss Cornelia? (Okay that's madness. Not that everything written here so far wasn't ALREADY madness, but I can't think of anything for Mikami Teru at ALL)

But seriously, this crossover MUST be written.

L OF WAMMY'S HOUSE

SOMEHOW I MUST FIND A WAY TO GET THIS DONE

I really, really, REALLY like Death Note.

And Monster.

Don't spoil me for Monster, though, I haven't finished reading it yet. (Although half of me suspects my love of Monster is partly because of Dr. Tenma. Cute, tall, kind-hearted neurosurgeon? DING DING DING! In an ideal world, though, I'd be with an anaesthesiologist. Or a rehab med dude. Convenience factor and all that.)

And I'm going to be honest and say that I only got interested in Death Note because people were flinging all these Zac Efron is Kira references. Well, Vanessa Hudgens has messy dark hair and eyebags (sometimes!). And Sharpay has a Misa Misa thing going on! (HOSHIT, WHEN TWO FANDOMS COLLIDE)

But after having read Death Note, it took me awhile to get into the fandom. It's weird. I love the manga because everyone is a heartless bastard and it isn't about good vs. evil, it's evil vs. the lesser evil and which one is it, really? But when it comes to fanfic and fanart I love the fluffy OOC ones where Light gives up on Kira or never had the Death Note and he and L have hot BDSM sex all over the place.

Speaking of BDSM...never mind. That's TMI.

Okay, all I'm going to say is, I don't think I can ever have 100% Vanilla sex. But who's to say what's Vanilla and what's not, anyways?

Hurrah, two things I hate: Twilight and Baseball.

The only coherent answer I have to offer is: doesn't MLB stand for Major League Baseball? So saying MLB baseball player is like saying, I dunno, ATM machine.

And for what it’s worth, I’m not a big believer in the “You’ll only find love when you’re not looking for it” school of thought. I was fucking looking when I found Al. I don’t think I spent a day of my life after hitting puberty not looking, really — but especially a year ago, I’d turned online dating into practically a part-time job. I was literally spending a couple hours a day writing to guys, a couple nights a week going on dates that ranged from pretty okay to horrid. Of course, that didn’t turn out to be how I found the right guy, but you’d better believe I was looking. It is okay to look. It is okay to want it. That does not actually send some desperate, self-defeating vibe out into the universe, guaranteeing that you will not find a decent date.

I may not be Fat Acceptance Activist, but I am so fucking glad someone said it.

I can want whatever I fucking want.

I want it all.

wow! I'm so lovely!

You Scored as Cassie You are most like Cassie! You are romantic and beautiful, but have a troubled life and have been hurt many times before. It seems that your life is a constant flow of drama and you are forever trying to get through things life throws at you. Even though you've been through a lot you still look at the world in awe and believe that there are so many good things in life. Cassie 75% Anwar 68% Jal 68% Chris 68% Effy 60% Maxxie 60% Sid 53% Michelle 53% Abigail 53% Tony 48%

I'm so ecstatic I can hardly type.

If you know my full name, go HERE, look for it, and you will know why I am so so ZOMG DIYOS KO PO ACH MEIN GOTT happy right now.

If not, I'll tell you.

I PASSED THE MEDICINE BOARD EXAMS!!! I AM FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY OFFICIALLY A DOCTOR!!!

I'll figure out where I'm going to take my career path later. Right now, I'm going to celebrate.

(1) A DA DA DA, LIKE THIS IN THE BACKGROUND
It's been, what, a day since the release of Christian Bale freaks the fuck out, and already there are t-shirts, countless macros, an Urban Dictionary entry (the Bale Out of 2009), a soundboard for your easy listening and remixing pleasure...

and speaking of remixes:

The Revolucian Remix


and the Mae Shi's tribute, "R U Professional"


They're actually damn catchy. And the Mae Shi's shoutouts to various Christian Bale films are awesome.

ETA: Of course, the RevoLucian remix becomes more loltastic when Christian Bale is dancing to it, Newsies-style:



(2) THIS JUST IN: STEPHEN KING IS AN UPSTART WHO KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT WRITING AND IS JUST JEALOUS OF STEPHENIE MEYER'S POPULARITY

God, my brain hurt just typing that sentence out. And that's actually a more coherent, grammatically-correct paraphrasing of several comments I've seen across the interwebz.

Anyways, just when I thought Twilight fans couldn't possibly be any stupider, they react to a Stephen King interview with such gems as (no paraphrasing this time, direct quotes):

[x] Stephen King really ? You should know this by now we read to get away and STEPHENIE MEYERS BOOKS DO THAT ! Who are you to tell anyone what is good and what isn't !

Yeah, Stephen King, author of a kajillion best-selling novels, essayist, and critic! Just who the hell do you think you are?

[x] if you are going to bash a fellow author and tell her what she cant do well - you should follow up by saying what she DOES do well. and similar comments, such as also I think he shouldn't have been so harsh when he described her work, I know he was being honest but I think he should take in consideration that he is a public figure and shouldn't bash another writter so harshly. Also, brilliant discourse from someone who can't even differentiate between Stephen King and JK Rowling: OH MY GOOD LORD ROWLING NEEDS TO SHUT THAT OVER GAPING HOLE IN HIS FACE ANYONE WHO HATES ON STEPHENIE MEYERS & BAD MOUTHS HER MOST AMAZING BOOKS ON THE PLANET IS MY MORTAL ENEMY THAT WAS JUST PLAIN PETULANTLY RUDE OF ROWLING SOMEONE SHOULD KNOCK HIM OFF HIS HIGH HORSE HOW RUTHLESS AND SAD THAT YOU HAVE TO TRY TO FIND SOMTHING WRONG WITH THE MOST BRILLANT BOOKS EVER WRITTEN (IM PISSED)

How dare you say the following, Stephen King: Both Rowling and Meyer, they’re speaking directly to young people. ... The real difference is that Jo Rowling is a terrific writer and Stephenie Meyer can’t write worth a darn. She’s not very good...People are attracted by the stories, by the pace and in the case of Stephenie Meyer, it’s very clear that she’s writing to a whole generation of girls and opening up kind of a safe joining of love and sex in those books. It’s exciting and it’s thrilling and it's not particularly threatening because they’re not overtly sexual. A lot of the physical side of it is conveyed in things like the vampire will touch her forearm or run a hand over skin, and she just flushes all hot and cold. And for girls, that’s a shorthand for all the feelings that they’re not ready to deal with yet."

GOSH DARN IT THAT'S SO MEAN!!!

Seriously, people, that...that doesn't even count as bashing. Paula Abdul has said worse things on American Idol.

And what is it with Twilight fans so afraid of "hurting people's feelings"? If you don't want your work criticised, don't have it published. End of story.

[x] King can go count something...when was the last time one of his books made as much money as Stephenie's?

[x] I cannot help but think that the only reason he would publicly criticize Meyer is that he is jealous of her undeniable success.

You know, those comments just mock themselves. I'm not even going to try.

[x] Well, I do not think he can write because he is too detailed and most of his stuff is about crazy clowns or kids getting hit by cars. Then again, he is famous, but has he ever made as much as Stephenie for a movie? No, most of his movies went straight to DVD or TV. The two rare movies that are shown in theaters are about those clowns and squashed children in the middle of the road.

I know, right? I mean, Twilight is so deep-seated in popular culture that we get beautiful macros like RPattz making a mess in his pants. Pig's blood at prom? Redrum? The Overlook Hotel? Room 1408 (I didn't even care for that movie, but it still beats the lulzfest that is Twilight.) The Green Mile? The Shawshank Redemption? Kathy Bates' Oscar for Misery? Who even knows about those things?

(Embarrassing indulgence: Sleepwalkers was one of my favourite films as a kid. Mostly because of the Enya theme song and Brian Krause being hot. Bata pa lang malandi na ako.)

[x] he is jelaous because he had his time, he was famous once, but everything he writes it’s the same.

Yeah! And Stephenie Meyer is so diverse in her subject matter and themes! What has Stephen King written about? Just crazy happenings in small American towns! Yeah, so what if one novel explores the havoc alcoholism wrecks on family life and another one details the craziness of obsessive fannish behaviour? So what if he's got stories that range from the cruelty and uncertainty of childhood to coming of age to adolescence to being a yuppie to senior citizenship to death and even beyond? They're all the same thing!

[x] Clearly he has no idea what he's talking about. All his books leave readers wicked confused anyways so what does he know.

[x] and since when do Young Adult novelists have extensive vocabularies? Come on. King-style writing for Young Adults? No one under the age of, say, 17 would understand that shit. I mean really.

[x] FROM A PERSONAL READING EXPERIENCE I HAVE NEVER READ A BOOK IN MY 26 YEARS AND AFTER I SAW THE MOVIE WAS GLUED I READ ALL 4 BOOKS IN LESS THEN A WEEK. I FOUND MYSELF SAYING "OK AFTER THIS CHAPTER I WILL GO TO SLEEP" BUT TOWARD THE END OF THAT CHAPTER I WAS LIKE "CRAP OK AFTER THE NEXT CHAPTER" I KEPT ME REALED IN, EVEN SOME OF THE BOREING PARTS, YOU WANT TO GET THROUGH IT JUST TO GET TO THE GREAT PARTS. I SEE SOME JEALOUSY!!

[x] Twilight was the first book that EVER reeled me in. I've read Stephen King's Desperation and well quite frankly it bored me. It was all about a f***ing crazy-ass cop that lived in an old mining town and it was just screwed up. SK SUCKS!!!! I never want to read his books again. And also I didn't get what he was talking about half the time in that book. I had to re-read the chapters before I finally got it.

[x] uhhmm yehhh if ur soul mate left u, then u would cry for the rest of ur exsitence. edward left beacuse he loved her so much. and yes its all very realistic.

[x] what ever ur oppinion does not matter i bet u just made alot of girls hate u plus u wouldnt see it in our way because UR NOT A GIRL TEENAGER JEEZ GO BOTHER SOME 1 ELSE AND BTW THE TWILIGHT SERIS ARE THE BOMB SO JUST GOO AWAY JEEZ

[x] OO YEA LET ME JUST ADD Y r the Twilight haters on this site jeez get a life !!!!!! and totally agree with Brittney a bunch of sci-fi crap tht no one needs in their life at least the twilight seris hav a unique touch to them the twilight seris rlly brings out wat it is like to be a girl !!! UR JUST JELOUS UR NOT LIKE EDWARD CULLEN !!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA

[x] IM NOT A TEEN. IM 26 YRS OLD AND HAVE 3 KIDS. I AM JUST A HERO FAN. I LIKE VAMPIRES, WAREWOLFS, SPIDERMAN, WIZARDS, WITCHES. ALMOST ANY MOIVE THAT HAS A PERSON WITH SPEACIAL POWERS IM IN.. HONESTLY I COULDN'T READ TWILIGHT WHEN MY SISTER GAVE IT TO ME. LIKE I SAID IM NOT A READER EVER!! I READ LIKE 3 PGS AND STOPPED TILL THE MOVIE CAME OUT THEN I WAS ALL IN..

[x] dudes im not a reader like ever. i dont even read for book projects (im not the best student) but! BUT! i read twilight. the whole series too. and when ppl compare it to harry potter im like what?!?reason why was because evryone was like read harry potter and i was all hell no i never read. the story just didnt intrest me. but then i heard about twilight and i was so excited to read it because i loved the story line. stephenie meyer is the only auther i will ever read. so i dont give a crap about what staphen whats his name says so whatever. there is my story.

Wow, if these are the kind of people who love the Twilight series...then I'm glad I quit whilst I was ahead. Also, although I know that the Internet is rife with illiterate fools, it still saddens me to encounter such a big mass of them. These idiots make YouTube comments and IMDB message boards look like bastions of erudite discussions.

You know what, my IQ can't take any more. All right, Twilight gets people who didn't read before to explore the wonderful world of reading...not. They swallow the series hook, line, and sinker, come away without any critical thinking or analytical skills whatsoever, proceed to never read another book again and continue living under a rock, and tell everyone on the internet that Twilight is the best ever and if they don't like it they are mean poopie heads who know nothing about enjoyment, happiness, writing, or true love.

(3) WHERE DO YOU FIND LOVE? IF WE KNEW, WE WOULD ALL KNOW WHERE TO LOOK.

One of the most adorable films ever. (Of course, me being me, my mind gave it an additional morbid kick at the end.) Something nice and sweet for Valentine's Day.

Part 1:


Part 2:


Facebook has a better quality video (that isn't split into two parts), but I'm avoiding Facebook right now. If anyone is interested, search for it under André Tadiello's profile.